I can here the bells...

Can you feel lost when actually everything is just falling into their proper places?

I know for a fact that when everything's a mess and nothing is going right, most of the time you feel lost! But how about if everything is going right... or at least almost everything is going right, can you honestly feel lost?

I tried to sit down and think through it and everything's seems to be normal, everything's seems alright... I don't think everything's perfect but everything's perfectly fine! And even though that's the case, even though it seems that everything's just in their proper places... it somehow doesn't feel right!

I know that sometimes, not everything that's right will make you happy but I know someday it will make sense... someday it just might make you happy! What I don't understand is that how is it possible that everything's around you is perfectly fine and yet it makes you uncomfortable, makes you feel lost???

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Friday night, around 1130PM, a friend texted me asking if I'd want to accompany her in watching "Eraserheads Live: The Final Set" in MOA the night after. I cannot reaaly say that I am a HUGE fan of Eheads but I have always liked them, I maybe not the biggest fan they have but I am a fan nevertheless.

Eraserheads is probably one of the best, if not "the best", rock band in the history of Original Pinoy Music. You can say that they are probably "the Beatles" of the Philippines. But as the old saying goes, evrything good or bad, must come to an end.

As the band sang thier marvelous hits through thier used to be frontman Ely Buendia, you can't help but be nostalgic... As I sang along with them, I feel sad and happy at the same time. Sad in a way that it has finally come to an end, and happy that I was there to hear them play for the last time.

I had goosebumps all over!

"At ngayon
Di pa rin alam
Kung ba't tayo nandito
Puwede bang itigil muna
Ang pag-ikot ng mundo"

As the band sang thier last song for the night, the infamous "Ang Huling El Bimbo", and as fireworks lit the night sky, Ely set to fire the famous "Sticker Happy" organ with a lighter fluid... it was indeed thier Final Set!

And then there they were.... The Eraserheas!

"Forever would be fine"

I still can't get over "Reveloutionary Road" and here to quote probably the most compelling scene in the movie:

April Wheeler: So now I'm crazy because I don't love you, right? Is that the point?

Frank Wheeler: No! Wrong! You're not crazy, and you do love me. That's the point, April.

April Wheeler: But I don't. I hate you. You were just some boy who made me laugh at a party once, and now I loathe the sight of you. In fact, if you come any closer, if you touch me or anything, I think I'll scream.

Frank Wheeler: Oh, come on, stop this April. [He touches her for an instant and she screams at the top of her lungs before walking away. He chases after her]

Frank Wheeler: Fuck you, April! Fuck you and all your hateful, goddamn - [He breaks a chair against a wall]

April Wheeler: What are you going to do now? Are you going to hit me? To show me how much you love me?

Frank Wheeler: Don't worry, I can't be bothered! You're not worth the trouble it would take to hit you! You're not worth the powder it would take to blow you up. You are an empty, empty, hollow shell of a woman. I mean, what the hell are you doing in my house if you hate me so much? Why the hell are you married to me? What the hell are you doing carrying my child? I mean, why didn't you just get rid of it when you had the chance? Because listen to me, listen to me, I got news for you - I wish to God that you had!

I have recently watched "Revolutionary Road" and I still can't get over the fact that Leonardo DiCaprio was not nominated for an Oscar, I am not very sure if it was due to technicalities that the movie didn't receive any nominations from the academy this year. Almost every year, Leo makes a great movie with great performance and depth, he's really showing depth in his acting and still no acting nominations from The Academy.

I must admit that I have always loved Leo ever since, way back "Marvin's Room" to "Romeo and Juliet" to "Catch Me If You Can" to "Body of Lies" and of course who could ever forget "Titanic".

Kate always give good performances in portraying each character she have had, and she had 6 best actress nomination, the 6th being her first golden statue. She even won Best Actress (Revelutionary Road) and Best Supporting Actress (The Reader) in 2009's Gloden Globe Awards.

For me, Leo's performance in Revolutionary Road was outstanding, it was simply great and heartfelt, he became Frank Wheeler. Probably, for me the best part was that of the day before Kate Winslet tried to abort thier baby herself. The scene where they were having an arguement when Kate told Leo that she doesn't love him, that she actually hates him. Leo was astounding, you could see in him the shock, the love, the hurt and all other mixed emotions he has. You can't help but feel for him in that scene.

Every movie he makes, he gave extra-ordinary performance, and almost all the time, he was snubbed of a nomination from the academy. Come to think of it, when was the last time he got nominated in Oscar's?

To quote one line from April Wheeler, "no one forgets the TRUTH, everyone just gets better in lying"