Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

They say that in this lifetime you’d meet people all the time. People whom can be your friend, your enemy, an acquaintance and people whom can be someone you’d share your life intimately.

I am the type of person, though always seen in the scene, am not sure if I can call myself a sociable person. Even if I do love going out, I am as private as I can be…

In the life that I have lived, I have made a lot of friends, I know I have made enemies as well but I know I am friendly for the most part, and there are these 2 guys that I know are worth keeping…

It’s funny that our friendship is unconventional in a way that I call them Inay (Mom) and Itay (Dad), and they actually call me “nak”. And I am actually their first born. Not literally of course!

These guys I know are someone I can trust and rely on in almost everything. They may don’t know much about my whereabouts or what’s going on in my head because I don’t open that much, but I know I can count on them. I don’t really open much, not just to them but to most of my friends, I guess that’s something about me that I have to deal with but then again that’s another story to tell. I know that they are very much willing to listen only if I would talk.

This group that we fondly call family eventually grew, now, I have sisters and brothers, I have uncles and aunts, and all the more, the fun just keeps growing… we somehow manage to be there not just for laughter but for tears as well.

I know I would still meet a lot of people along the way, I know I would eventually make friends and enemies alike… we can’t really say what’s in store for us for the next couple of years, if I would still be here or if these 2 guys are still here, but whatever fate gives me…I know, I’d always look back to this day and would always feel grateful that I have my Inay and my Itay.

To you both, more more love, stay strong and keep the fire burning! Cheers!

I can’t remember anymore the first time I fell in love with reading. I can’t remember what novel it was or was it a fairy tale. I just know that right now, I love reading more than anything… I read a lot, almost all kinds, but give me novels, fiction, and self help type of books anytime…

Last night when I was watching one of my favorite series Ally Mcbeal, yes, I love Ally Mcbeal and I have the whole set. I don’t know, but out of nowhere, it just dawned on me why did I fell in love with books… more often than not, it can captivate my emotions, to the extent that it can make me cry…

For me reading can be very relaxing… unlike to others that it can stress their eyes. When I’m reading, I retreat to my own world. In reading, I am compelled to visualize what is being described in the book. I need to create a picture of it in my mind. I need to use my imagination to see a clearer picture.

It is in reading that I feel in control of everything… like the author can maneuver things the way he wanted it to be… not so much like in the real world, where you can never direct the outcome.

I can say that books are my comfort zone, in there I find peace, in there I find comfort.

When the real world is all fucked up; I retreat to my books, to open my mind, to open my imagination, to make me believe that everything can be okay, that it can be better… don’t get me wrong, I still live in the real world, but somehow it helps me to feel good that somehow everything can be perfect even if it’s only in the books…

I used to hate carrying bags around, even if I’m going to work, or even back in college. But recent events change that when I finally saw the importance of having a bag from time to time.

Now that I carry a bag to work and sometimes even when going somewhere, lets try to dissect what’s inside my bag.

Organizer- my hard earned Starbucks organizer, I tend to forget some stuffs and occasions and gatherings or date with friends… so I try to keep track with my organizer.

Perfume- oh well I am developing my love with scents, my new flavor of the month, Herrera Aqua by Carolina Herrera.

ID- ok, of course I need some identification.

Digital Camera- I am a camwhore, need I say more?

Pens- of course I have to have pens handy…

Post-its- for when leaving short notes and short sweet nothings… hehehe!

Toothbrush- always keep a fresh breath, you’ll never know when you’ll be lip-locking! Kidding! I interview applicants, and so I have to keep my breath fresh.

And of course my Pouch Bag!

So what’s inside my pouch bag? Are you kidding me?!? Of course you have face powder, mascara, lip gloss, eye shadow, etc. etc. HAHAHAHA!

No way!

Here’s what’s inside my pouch bag!

My Sony Cyber shot charger, Digital Camera Data Cable, My phone charger, My SE data cable, and my SE earphones

Life played a trick on me, and it swept me off my feet… I am ready to stand up and pick up everything but I can’t seem to figure out my way.

I am lost.

I know I can easily look back and retrace my steps but am I scared that there’s none left there for me. My instincts tell me that they’re just there but I can’t seem to see any.

Life if full of interruptions and complications.

In my adversity, I find solace and comfort in the fact that if you are on your lowest, there’s no other way but UP.