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It's friday again! 6 months ago, I would've been ecstatic knowing that weekend is already here. But with me trying my best efforts to be a good boy or a man or a gay man for that matter, I found myself thinking so hard on how to spend my so called weekend.

I left office at around almost 8PM, and since I have no where to go, no date and even no friends to meet up with, I decided to head home.

At home, I found out that my eldest sister is already preparing for work and that my other sister's boyfriend is staying for the weekend. Instantaneously, I decided that I will be going out sooner than I thought. And since Mark isn't replying to my messages, I guess i'll be watching a movie again... alone!

I heard "He's Just Not That Into You" is good!

If only you can just close your heart from the things you don't want to feel... then everything will just be perfect!

I can't describe how I'm feeling right now, all I know is that, I honestly think I don't deserve this... I don't desserve this kind of treatment. Such harsh words.

Get me outta here and make it quick!

As days passed, I've been checking my email religiously... patiently waiting, impatiently hoping! It has been a week now.

As I open my yahoo mail after a meeting yesterday, there it was... lying in my inbox!

The email... and this will be the start of something new... *Big Smile*

Valentine's day passed with me having no one to hold and spend it with, come to think of, it has always been like that for the past few years now... me being single.

And since I would look like a total loser to go out alone that day, when almost everyone around you is spending the day in two's... I decided to just stay home and meet with some friends come very late evening.

Sunday came and although my sisters are home, they are sleeping since they came from a shift the night before and will still be having one sunday night. I asked some friends if they would want to see a movie. Fortunate enough that I have one friend who is available and would want to give me company.

After deciding that we are to meet at 6PM, I busied myself with old DVDs at home and watched HSM 2. I decided to hit the shower after the movie and started preparing myself. I fetched Shun and head to the nearest mall. We decided to watch Marley and Me.

I have heard from friends that it was a good movie about the "Man's Bestfriend".

It was a feel good movie, having to feel a little sad if I may just say the day before, it was a welcome changed that I was actually laughing while watching the movie. It was such a feel good movie that I wanted to adopt or even buy a dog for myself after. Our dog, which is a doberman, died last month and probably the reason why the movie moved me into almost tears as the movie progressed. Having said that, I had the strongest urged to buy a new dog.

I still remember that day when we learned that our beloved doberman died, my mom cried. Although I wasn't able to spend as much time with our dog since she's in the province, I felt sad about the news, afterall I always try to play with her when I'm in Nueva Ecija.

Marley and Me, was in more ways than one, a funy and a toucing story. It has that warmth and wouldn't keep you from really laughing even if you are in a movie house. I believed what Owen Wilson said in one of the scenes... I can't remember exactly what he said but it was something like "when you give your heart to a dog, it will give his heart to you in exchange"

If I will still be spending my valentines day alone next year, I just hope I'd just be spending it with my very own Marley.

I have always been a fan of movies, and I have had my share of watching them. I know there are a lot of people who have seen more than I do, there's no doubt about that, but I can still say that I have my fair share.

For me, watching movies makes me relax, it's one way for me to escape the world that I know, the world that I have lived in. I have had encouragements from friends to watch certain films because it was great and most of it are actually great films. But there are also a number of films that, I don't know if I was just expecting too much but, sad to say failed me.

I have recently watched the much talked about "Bangkok Love Story", and to say that I loved it, would be an understatement. Surprisingly, for me it lived up to my expectation,s if not exceeded. For a gay indie film, it was excellent.


Two things that made me really really love this film are it's cinematography and acting.

The cinematography was simply amazing. Very strong angles, right execution of panning, perfect lighting. It was a work of art, well at least for me. The actors were brilliant that they can actually act!

Of course the direction was great, set design was artistically made and the story was surreal but engaging and would keep you wanting for more!

I was so in love with the film that it haunted me...

I can't help but wonder, is it really possible to wait with uncertainties for something that you really wanted even if takes you forever? In a world that works with assurance and surrounded by certainties, can LOVE really survive the uncertain?