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Happy Birthday!

2011-05-04T16:12:00.001+08:00

Another year passed, a year older...

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Bintan, Indonesia

2011-04-27T14:55:00.014+08:00

I have been on a hiatus with blogging, but I have never forgotten this blog site. I will try to make it more regularly, and for starters, here are some of my pics taken from my wonderful trip in Bintan, Indonesia.

Color much?!? lol!

Watermelon coolers! so chic!

this Avocado shake is really amazing

A very slim Coke in Can, 250ml.

Derek, in a very cozy chalet...

we don't really know what this is, but it's amazing that in the middle of the sea and it has a pathway

talk about coordination and motif...

View

2010-08-08T21:47:00.003+08:00

Kapag ganito ang view ko sa window, siguro hindi na ako lalabas....

MBS

2010-08-08T21:43:00.005+08:00

Marina Bay Sands, Singapore

I wonder how I would be if I had opted to accept the job offer here instead?!?

Respect

2010-08-05T21:23:00.001+08:00

I guess I could say that I am very lucky to have the kind of family I have. No, I take that back, I am indeed lucky to have the kind of family I have. I am a living testament that your own family are the only people who will love you for who you are and for who you are not!

My parents were wise enough to teach us the importance of respect early on. As I made my first outside the house on my way to the first of day of school in nursery, I was told to have and show respect for people, whether it be a schoolmate, a peer, a teacher or a school staff, it is very important to have and show them respect. Of course it didn't make any sense back then, or at least I didn't know what exactly they mean, but nevertheless I am sure I was told to do so by my parents.

Growing up, my parents made us realize the difference between fear and respect. That it is better to have the latter than the former. That it's not a sin to reason back if you know you are right provided you do so in a respectful manner. My parents were kind enough to hear our thoughts and encourages us to voice them out. You'd be amaze to hear us 5 talk. Behind the casual banters and tirades, every word has an underlying respect for each other's opinions and thoughts.

Reporting to different supervisors and managers in my six years of working in a corporate world, I have come to exercise the practice that I have been told ever since. I may have opposing opinions with my direct supervisors, I may not agree with everything they have to say, but it is always important to have and show respect for them. If not for their position at least respect as a person.

Now, that I am overseas, I am grateful more than ever for having been told to have and show respect to everyone. Meeting other people and knowing different cultures makes me think that I was indeed very lucky to have been raised the way that I have been.

I miss...

2010-08-01T21:03:00.003+08:00

I miss my parents and how I dread going home to Nueva Ecija because of the travel time. I miss how my Mommy would tell me to always take care and tell me lotsa stuff and eventually would ask money from me. I miss telling her at times that I don't have enough. I miss how my mom would ask me/us on what food we like to eat. I miss how I managed to hear a mass my my parents whenever I'm in Nueva Ecija. I miss seeing my aunts and my uncles and my cousins and how we plan drinking sessions at times.

I miss sleeping in the matress in our living room. I miss my sisters and how we make fun of each other. I miss opening the our refrigerator and seeing that there are more Coke Lite inside than real food. I miss my sister's cooking. I miss walking to the next street late night because I can't sleep and because I'm really hungry. I miss smoking with my sisters and how I always ask for yosi from Ate Ayen. I miss sleeping with Ate Griz when she's off. I miss pestering her when she's awake. I miss watching DVDs with them. I miss going to the mall with them.

I miss reading tons of email in the morning at work. I miss how I sometimes get pissed whenever I read some unreasonable emails. I miss answering emails and sometimes not answering them. I miss how I make make my officemates laugh and I miss how they make me laugh. I miss Emily. I miss drinking coffee with Ana in Starbucks PacStar. I miss the "team meeting" in Starbucks PacStar. I miss the 5th Floor and how it can make you smell like food even for just staying there for a couple of minutes. I miss the sour cream flavored french fries. I miss GF. I miss wearing long sleeves to work. I miss wearing short sleeves to work. I miss dressing up for work. I miss looking at Rizza's catalogues for more clothes to work. I miss my Dream Team. I miss Anj. I miss Rizza. I miss Carla. I miss Grace. I miss how them calling me "Wi". I miss everyone calling me "Wi".

I miss the GOAL Officers. I miss Kat and I miss playing with her because she's so gullible. I miss Mommy Lee and how we exchange new songs and videos. I miss singing with her or her singing with me. I miss Twisha and I miss looking at her facial expressions because her desk is in front of mine. I miss secretly keeping her phone or wallet so that she'll think she lost it. I miss how we used to talk about a lot of stuff and how I persuaded her to watch "Stardust". I miss my uber small table at the corner near the aircon switch. I miss going to HR's Office when I don't have things to do. I miss going to 2nd Floor to bug the RAs. I miss Emily. I miss JD and how I always make fun of him. I miss how he tries to save him some dignity, wherein he almost always fails. I miss bugging Ems to go somewhere even if she has lotsa things to do. I miss talking to her about basically everything. I miss being open to her about everything. I miss her kagagahan and I miss my kagaguhan with her. I miss being serious with her.

I miss going out on a Saturday night. I miss seeing my friends get drunk. I miss getting drunk with them. I miss going to Big Fish events with them. I miss having a great time with them and how we always can laugh about things. I miss Basol. I miss Mark. I miss Dadi. I miss Momi. I miss always seeing familiar faces every weekend in clubs. I miss Klein! I miss hating how hot it is in Bed especially if it gets too crowded. I miss how I complain about their air conditioning and yet I always go there on weekends. I miss seeing JP dance on the platform and how he will pull me up there and so is Basol. I miss he three of us dancing and how we would sing along to the music being played.

I miss going to GB3 and watch a movie alone. I miss eating out alone. I miss having my alone time and just walking the streets of makati alone. I miss going to Glorietta and complain about the number of people there and how it used to be quiet 5 or 6 years back. I miss the Timezone in Glorietta 4. I miss people watching in CBTL in GB3. I miss Cyma. I miss writing blogs. I miss reading books and how I sometimes would skip a night out just to finish a book. I miss getting a massage and how I sometimes get a massage after a stressful day at work. I miss a lot of things and I can go on forever, I guess what I'm just trying to say is that... I miss HOME!

Pasta De Waraku

2010-03-28T20:16:00.007+08:00

One Rest Day, we went out and had dine in a Japanese Restaurant but the menu is mainly pasta!

see the pics below of what we had... Yum Yum!

Work Routine

2010-03-16T23:24:00.007+08:00

Here's my daily routine when I have work! I'll let you take a peak... using my very new toy! woot woot! :P

I walk my way to work and it's approximately about 10-15 mins.

Here's my lunch, The Staff Canteen serves really cheap food about half the price outside!

Lunch at the Staff Canteen which is SG$ 3, SG$ 2.10 for the food and SG$ 0.90 for the drink, I had iced coffee..

The best yosi I've ever had to date!

Yosi after lunch!

my everyday!

2010-03-11T23:42:00.002+08:00

I am now officially.... an OFW!

I started working March 4th, which is a Thursday and Friday I'm off again, hahaha! Saturday, the 6th I worked and also Sunday, but Monday, March 8th, my off again!

Tuesday till tomorrow which is the 12th of March, been working from 10AM-9PM average, It was not that bad, I was actually enjoying it, I love it more when there are more customers than there are none, it's so tiring to think of things to do! I like it better when I'm moving around, when I need to rush because there are customers waiting for you... I like the adrenalin rush!

The difficulty I'm really facing now is the Language Barrier, I mean, It's really hard to understand to understand singlish, I need to read between the lines most of the time. Colleagues on the other hand are quite nice, they seem friendly and helpful. Although I have yet to meet other peeps. but so far so good! And I am just so glad I made this life changing decision! So worth it!

CNY (Chinese New Year)

2010-02-24T15:08:00.002+08:00

Okay, I am still here, and we just celebrated the Chinese New Year here in Singapore last week. We had our share of CNY Dinner with Filipino friends. It was a simple dinner, we had Pork and Squid Adobo and Pork Binagoongan, Pansit and some desserts.

Of course, since this is a CNY Dinner, we had to do this, I don't remember what this is called but this is a tradition. You have to mix everything up and toss everything using chopsticks, the higher the toss, the more luck it brings you.

Kung Hei Fat Choi and Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Everyday is a learning process

2010-02-09T19:41:00.006+08:00

Someone said "Life will never be easy, but it can be worthwhile". Whoever he is, he is not joking! haha!

They said that the more you sacrifice or suffer the better or the bigger the rewards get, I hope so! I am really keeping my fingers crossed about that matter. These past few weeks have been really challenging for me, it's not a walk in the park, far from being like that. But then again, there lies the promise, every now and then I get to encounter some encouragement to keep me going, to keep me doing what I need to do in the hope that I will see results sooner than later!

Just a moment a go, I've checked my daily horoscope in Facebook.com and my fortune cookie said "The first step to better times is to imagine them". Serves you right, claim it and you will have it, believe in the power of mind, The Secret!

A fun party

2010-01-30T15:52:00.006+08:00

There was a birthday celebration at our place last week, and it was well attended by fellow filipinos and If I may just say so, IT WAS A FUN PARTY!

I can't let you see the photos but I can let you take a peek at one photo... Go figure! hahahaha

2010

2010-01-30T15:50:00.001+08:00

I can truly and honestly say that I welcomed 2010 with an BANG!

Living Room View

2010-01-30T15:43:00.008+08:00

Here are some shots of the view that you can see from the living room window of the house where I am right now.

a life changing moment

2010-01-30T15:21:00.004+08:00

I've recently made a BIG, and when I say BIG I mean HUGE, decision, a life changing one at that! I've come out of my comfort zone, and I face the world head on. I hope this decision will be fruitful, either way I know I won't have any regrets.

I've been having a lot of time for myself lately, been doing a lot of thinking and planning and thinking again. No clear paths yet, everything's still a blur, but I'm keeping my optimism and my fingers crossed, that eventually GOD's angels will smile my way and will say "you've been a good person and we will be glad to see you fulfill your dreams, go on my dear, you may proceed".

christmas party

2009-12-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

Last night was Recruitment's Christmas Party in LD, we had a blast last night, I just hoped that everyone was there with us, everyone present was laughing and just enjoying the time. We had guests from different departments and former colleagues as well.

Prior to last night, a wishlist was passed on for our exchange gifts, I wished for a nice printed shirt and coincidentally the the person I picked wished for a shirt as well, only to find out in the party that we will just be exchanging gifts with each other, hahahaha! I loved the shirt that I received that night, thanks to my Daddy!

Food was overflowing, and food was okay and there were really good food too! I just wished that the team was complete in this party to celebrate the year that was 2009 and be optimistic with 2010!

Anyhoo, it was nice having that chance to spend a christmas party with officemates.

An early christmas treat

2009-12-11T14:26:00.005+08:00

Two nights ago, I was able to go home early and finally had the time to go online and catch up with friends in facebook and yahoo messenger. I was harvesting my crops in Farmville when a good friend started chatting with me in YM.

The good friend is now in Singapore, he left just this November for work. He's actually with the friend I met up with when I visited the country last September, we've been friends for more than 6 years now, together with a couple more guys.

The good friend was obviously smitten by the beauty of Singapore the same way as I was when I was there. He only have good words to describe the city. Well at least for now. Hehehe! But I doubt if that would change, I only have good words for Singapore myself. I was really envious that they are having a great time and I wanted so bad to be there. They kept saying that I better book my tickets to be with them. I want to, but I don't think I have the means.

They said that there's going to be a new year party at my friends place since they can't really use fireworks on new year's eve. A party that is to be attended by his filipino friends, by this time, I was already dead envious. I could just imagine how much fun it would be if we were all there. Nothing beats the company of really good friends.

My connection was acting up so I had to disconnect, and I had a hard time connecting back again. I just resorted to watching TV and shutting down my laptop.

As I prepare myself to sleep, I received a phone call from an overseas number. I found out that it was my two good friends from Singapore calling asking for my full name and my address and my birthdate. Next thing I heard was that they were booking my flight to Singapore to spend my new year there, and they are shoulering my tickets. I was dumbfounded to say the least, I don't know what to say, I keep thinking if I could file for a Vacation Leave. They said my flight would be December 31 to Singapore and January 6 going back. I will be spending 7 days in SG.

The next day, I saaw myself talking to my boss asking permission to have a vacation early January to give way to my friends. I had to let go of my desire to buy a new phone to give way to this trip. No regrets though because I really like Singapore plus the fact that I will be spending the new year with two of my closest friends.

So as I bid the 2009 goodbye, I will welcome 2010 with good friends in the city of the merlions. Cheers to that!

friends do make you laugh

2009-12-04T14:58:00.006+08:00

I've been more active in facebook the past few weeks and I've induldge myself in answering "Social Interview" questions for me and about my friends in the online community.

There was this particular question that I was really glad to answer because I really want to know the answer. Social Interview asked me "If you can spend time with GOD, what would you ask HIM?" I answered, "Where do I go from here?" I really want to know what else is in store for me, for my future. I have been wanting to know the answer for quite awhile now, I've been asking myself if this is all there is to it?

I hit the publish to my wall button and there it is on my wall. After finishing 30 questions, skipping most of it, I viewed my profile only to find out that a good friend already left a comment on this particular post.

He said "Bakit hindi mo gamitin yung compass mo?" (why don't you use your compass?) he was definitely referring to my tattoo!

toink!

toink!

All the seriousness and placidity I felt in answering that particular question got all flashed down the drain...

Tattoo

2009-11-28T11:23:00.003+08:00

as promised, here's the tattoo I got for myself, a lot of them are saying that I will never be lost again because I have a compass with me always... hahaha!

Now, the big question is, will I get another one? hmmmm

Proud to be Pinoy!

2009-11-28T11:19:00.001+08:00

We all know by now that Manny Pacquiao was once again triumphant in his 12 rounds with Cotto, and that he’s also entangled in a controversy with a sexy star. Manny Pacquiao made history for having 7 championship belts and the first one to have just that. Manny once again proved that he’s a force to reckon with in the field of boxing.

Another Filipino making headlines right now is Efren Penaflorida, who just won CNN’s Hero of the Year award for his efforts to make a difference. Efren along with his friends push a cart with books and stuffs needed for teaching. In doing so, he’s able to teach kids in the street and those who can’t go to school. Truly remarkable isn’t it?

We all saw the welcome Filipinos gave Manny Pacquiao, but what have we done for Efren? Have we given him the welcome he truly deserves? Are we giving credit where it’s rightfully due? Manny made history in the fields of sports but didn’t Efren made history as well? A lot say Manny put the Philippines back in the map, but Efren did just that and maybe even more. I’m not saying that Manny didn’t deserve what he got from the Filipinos because he really did made all of us proud, but Efren made all of us proud just the same, so aren’t we supposed to give him the same thing we gave Manny?

Have we been fair in recognizing achievements?

I can’t help but wonder, if we sensationalize Efren’s triumph in CNN, will it tarnish the purity of his advocacies?

Happy Birthday Mommy!

2009-11-27T21:22:00.003+08:00

I filed for a 2 day Vacation Leave from work, Thursday and Friday this week because I am going home to Nueva Ecija. These are rare occasions that I go home. It's actually my "Mommy's" 80th birth day she is actually my grandmother but we all call her mommy, and yes, this is really something to celebrate! Not everyone's lucky enough to experience his/her 80th year in this world.

The celebration was not as fancy as we all wanted it to be due to budget constraints, but fancy enough to celebrate her 80 wonderful years. My mom invited my grandmonther's classmates when she was still studying, there are still a few of them around, she also invited her co-teachers back then. Yes, my lola was a grade school teacher. Relatives are also present to celebrate with us.

Happy Birthday Mommy!

I wish you more years to enjoy with us!

My Tattoo Experience

2009-11-24T20:28:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday afternoon, a good friend and an officemate of mine went to Legarda, Manila to finally have my very first tattoo, I've always wanted to have one. Deciding on what design I'm having is what really delayed the experience. I haven't taken a picture of it yet, but I will post it here soon!

We met in the office at 1PM and head to Manila for the session, was I scared? I don't think so, excited and anxious at the same time I think would best describe what I felt at that time. So we got there after an hour or less I think, made a few adjustments with the size of our designs and the session started.

I'm not really sure if I have a high treshold for pain, or I was just expecting that it will be really painful, but It's really not! It is painful but it's tolerable, the pain didn't bother me at all. I think it took the artist an hour and a half to finish my tattoo and another an hour for my friend's. It was an experience to say the least.

If what my parents would say when they learned that I got a tattoo, I don't really know, but that's a different story to tell!

Some friends tried to talk me out of it, they said that I might regret having one in the future, but I always satisfy my curiosity, that's me! And guess what, no regrets of whatsoever! I am really damn happy that I got one! Will post it here soon!

Being Beautiful

2009-11-24T19:48:00.004+08:00

I've recently pursuaded myself in working out again after 3 years of not lifting weights. Today is the start of my 2nd week. Woohoo!

So far, so good! I'm feeling energetic and light again. I've been strict with my diet for the past 8 months and I've never been happy with the results. I think I am now in my ideal body weight and all I need to do in the gym is to tone and condition my muscles. I never really like big and buffed muscles, I like it lean and toned. But as we all know beauty has a price to pay and by that, it means that I've been starving for the past 8 months and now you can include the waking up early in the morning to be able to tire yourself by lifting weights and running in treadmills before reporting to work.

So much for beauty right? But like what I have heard from a friend, "kailangan mong mag gym para hindi ka mawala sa market!" Haha! Right he is, sometimes this community tends to be really superficial, so thanks to all the fitness centers for the dumbels and bench presses and the treadmills, I'll be up for grabs soon!

Tickle; Relationships

2009-11-22T11:25:00.006+08:00

There's this text message that goes:

Love usually just hits us like a bullet, at first we can't feel it,

then,

Bang!

we bleed....

You see, I d0n't believe it, I always thought that Love will come to us slowly, it's like it will start to tickle you and you'd smile, and tickle you some more then you'd start to laugh until you can't stop from laughing, and then you'd start to cry because of laughing so hard, until the tickling stops.

Just like in relationships, those who can hurt us and make us cry are the relationships that made us laugh and made us really happy, then when the realtionship ends, the laughing and crying ends too...

But eventually, you'd meet someone again who'd tickle you, but hopefully tickle you just enough that you don't have to cry because of laughing so hard...

For You A Thousand Times Over

2009-10-06T20:12:00.007+08:00

“Do you want me to run that kite for you?”

His Adam’s apple rose and fell as he swallowed. The wind lifted his hair. I thought I saw him nod.

“For you, a thousand times over,” I heard myself say.

Then I turned and ran.

It was only a smile, nothing more. It didn’t make everything alright. It didn’t make anything all right. Only a smile. A tiny thing. A leaf in the woods, shaking in the wake of a startled bird’s flight.

But I’ll take it. With open arms. Because when springs comes, it melts the snow one flake at a time, and maybe I just witnessed the first flake melting.

I ran. A grown man running with a swarm of screaming children. But I didn’t care. I ran with the wind blowing in my face, and a smile as wide as the Valley of Panjsher on my lips.

I ran.

I've been catching up with my reading lately and a colleague of mine introduced me this book. The excerpt above was from that book and this particular part amongst others gave me goosebumps.

The book to me, was a story of friendship, betrayal, loyalty, second chances and maybe even redemption. A story of how being trutful can really change a lot. How a single lie can change somebody's life.

Set in Afghanistan, the book tackles family and friendship between Amir and Hassan and how social differences mattered at the time. How one cannot challenge the norms dictated by the society they live in and how a kite tournament changed it all.

I will not critique the book nor challenge it, I will merely say that I had the best time reading it and that I would recommend it to everyone.

"The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini was definitely a good read!

Maybe

2009-08-25T17:10:00.012+08:00

Maybe, you are HEARING but not really listening,

Maybe, you were really oblivious

Maybe, you really took me FOR granted

after all the things that has happened

Maybe, I was TOO HARD on you

Maybe, I was trying too hard

Maybe, I was just EXPECTING too much

Maybe, I became really unreasonable

all the little things, all the SMALL stuffs

maybe I was always expecting something in return

Maybe, MAYBE and just Maybe....

I'm Tired

2009-08-19T15:34:00.001+08:00

I don't want to ride the wind anymore,

I'm tired.

I don't want it to just take me anywhere it wants me to be,

I've already tried that and I'm tired.

I want to be able to feel the warm beach sand under my feet.

Feel the sun's heat against my skin.

I want to feel the earth,

stand on it,

run on it again.

I've been floating aimlessly for quite awhile now,

and I'm tired.

I want to be grounded again...

I'm tired!

Anticipation

2009-08-13T17:20:00.000+08:00

35 days to go and counting!

35 more sunrise and sunsets and I will set my foot on one of the cleanest and most orderly city in this planet.

Late last year when I decided to join my friends in their trip to Bangkok, Thailand, I promised myself to visit at least 2 countries in a year. More of a personal quest to know and get acquainted with different cultures, see different sites and be awed in wonders other than the Filipinos can offer. Many thanks to Cebu Pacific for seat sale, flying now is more affordable.

Since I only filed for a 5-day vacation leave, I will be visiting Singapore for 2 days and will pass by Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and spend 2 days there as well. Not much I know, but at least I will be able to go and explore other territories.

First time to travel outside the country alone, and I'm getting more anxious on what's in store for me in this trip. I'm very eager to try this backpacking experience, if this will be a good thing for me, I don't know yet, but I'm optimistic that this experience will be very rewarding for me.

Getting more excited by the day!

Corazon Aquino

2009-08-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

August 1, 2009 made it's mark in the Philippine History.

Today, the whole filipino community is mourning a great loss, the passing of a mother, Mrs. Corazon Aquino. An icon of a democratic and prayer-full filipino. She led a peaceful revolution in the 80's that brought together thousands of filipinos holding hands while praying the rosary in Epifanio Delos Santos Avenue, now more commonly known as EDSA. She, while looking after her real family, also took into care many a thousand filipinos fighting for a free and democratic Philippines. While she became the father and the mother of her kids... she became the mother that the filipinos needed at that time. Caring to a fault, peaceful and yet firm, just like any other moms.

I have had my first chance of encountering Mrs. Aquino through my teachers in History during my elementary years. I didn't gave her much attention at that time, I guess, I didn't give her enough credit. I just know that she was the first Female Philippine President, and that she was a big factor in the EDSA revolution. I didn't gave much fuss about her. I had my youthful eyes on Emilio Aguinaldo, in Andres Bonifacio and of course Dr. Jose Rizal among other heros in our history. Mrs. Corazon Aquino didn't matter to me that much.

But as I breeze away in my journey as a filipino, enjoying my highschool years, cramming myself in project deadlines in college, spending late nights in gimiks up unitl the time that I work in the graveyard shift, or the time when a teacher in front of a classroom would put an indellible ink on my thumb after filling out a form with several names that I look up to, Cory Aquino was a permanent fixture in the far corner of my head. I hardly even notice her but she was always there...

After her six-year term as a president, she decided to go on with her life, as a mother, as a grandmother and as a filipina. She was helping others as much as she can. She was pre-occupied with helping people, empowering them. She was always there, ready to share her opinions... ready to make a stand!

I've never given her much thought really, not until these last few months, not until this final battle of hers that I was able to really know her, really get to see her in a different light and how she affected our lives right now. How she made a huge impact on the lives of many filipinos. I understand now how she played a major role in the society that we have now, how she forever changed my future. One may not see it directly, but whether one admits it or not, she really became a mother to us all... a mother who was there when we needed her the most.

And just like a real mother, she'll be greatly missed and forever loved...

Patronizing Facebook

2009-07-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Well, everyone's crazy about facebook, can't blame them, I myself patronizes Facebook and every once in awhile I take some random quizzes about basically anything! Haha! Just recently I took this test:

"What kind of boy should you be with?" quiz and the result is Bestfriend Boy.

You need a bestfriend boy. It sounds very boring, but it's really not. This could turn into the most passionate relationship ever! You need someone that is just fun to be around, without all the mushy gushy stuff all the time. You want to be able to be yourself around a guy, and just hangout like you do with your friends. You also probably value being able to have a conversation that has to do with more than how much you "miss" or "love" each other. If you have a bestfriend that's a guy, don't be afraid to DATE HIM! He could turn out to be the perfect guy for you. And if you don't have a guy bestfriend already, then find one! If you meet a guy you might be interested in, see if you can just be friends before you climb into the relationship.

come to think of it.... makes sense!

L.O.A.F.E.R.S.

2009-07-23T17:30:00.000+08:00

Loafers is really a big thing these days... I can say that it's one of those "must haves" of a fashionable and hip guy, not necessarily a gay guy, but every guy for that matter.

Comfy. Fashionable. Reliable. Trendy

Take a look at this Gucci Loafers....

Bohol, The Gang

2009-06-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

My officemates and I went to Bohol for a summer ender, pass by Cebu before going to Panglao, Bohol.

At NAIA Terminal 3, waiting for our plane to Cebu.

From Cebu Mactan International Airport, we are headed to JY Mall to buy our Fast Craft tickets for Bohol.

before going to JY Mall, we headed to thier IT Park for breakfast at "Ila Puti".

Our first night in Panglao, Bohol. Dinner and drinks at Lost Horizon Beach Resort.

Lunch at the floating restaurant, Loboc River.

This is a highlight of our trip, super laugh trip! this is in Butterfly Farm.

before heading back to Manila, we had lunch in Cebu. We ate at Golden Cowry restaurant and the food was great and it's relatively cheap!

Bohol, The Scenes

2009-06-23T19:47:00.000+08:00

Okay, so here are a few pictures from our Bohol Trip last May. I know this is already a month late, but I was so busy reconfiguring my blogsite. hehehehe! excuses I know.... but here ya go, hope you like the pictures....

We are travelling to Cebu via Cebu Pacific and from Cebu, we are travelling via a fast craft that would bring us to Bohol.

Here's a view from my window in the plane

we stayed in Lost Horizon Resort in Panglao Island, Bohol. The place is okay but the food and beverages are quite expensive.

This is outside Baclayon Church, they say that the face markings on the wall is actually of a certain priest who first built this church... can you see it?

this is the bell tower in Baclayon Church

I really like this picture... it seemed that there's a certain pride from this bird.

this is "Proni" the biggest Python in Bohol

Lunch in Loboc River, the floating restaurant

I consider this as one of the highlights of our trip, this is the "Man Made Forest". It's amazing that this is actually man made, the vibe there gives you a certain feeling that you are not in the Philippines anymore. Simply breathtaking!

of course your Bohol trip will not be complete without visiting the Chocolate Hills, we also learned that the reason why it's brown is because most of the hills are actually coral and not soil.

this one is from the butterfly farm.

This is the Blood Compact Shrine.

Another Year

2009-05-01T15:46:00.002+08:00

Once again, it's MAY 01!

and it could only MEAN one thing...

I am a year OLDER!

A year older and HOPING that also a year WISER.

No fancy CELEBRATIONS this year

just an INTIMATE dinner with my PARENTS.

a BUCKET FULL of wishes

and a measure of HOPE

that SOON enough...

a realization of a DREAM COME TRUE!

enough amount of COURAGE

plus the OPTIMISM I always have

and the right amount of ENCOURAGEMENT

with overflowing LOVE from my FAMILY

and brimming care from FRIENDS

equals

a bright and PROMISING YEAR ahead!

Galera '09

2009-04-14T21:23:00.001+08:00

here are some shots from my Holy Week '09 in White Beach, Puerto Galera.

a cute pifture of a family having fun under the sun...

best friends?!? I dunno, but 1 thing for sure, Summer is indeed for everyone.

I have my own of this, but I still have to learn a lot before I can do this in a beach.

JP's headshot, one of my favorite shot in this trip.

a paparazzi shot of JP, Haha!

I looooooove this shot! :D

like what I've said before, I love sunsets!

during one of our dinners...

waiting for our boat on our way home....

Holy Week '09

2009-04-13T16:35:00.002+08:00

I spent my holy week in White Beach, Puerto Galera with some very good friends, friends that are almost like family to me.

We arrived Thursday, April 09 at 730AM. After taking our breakfast we head for our room to rest a bit and prepare for what's in store for us the next couple of days.

It was 4 days and 3 nights of blissful fun, a collection of unguarded memories, a bundle of heartfelt laughters.

We left the beach Sunday, April 12, 2PM and arrived Manila around 630PM. And as the day is almost over and as I prepare myself to sleep, a very good friend texted me this message:

Galera will never be the same again. I love it. Supermega Bonding, super saya. Super taas ng memories pwede na maabot ang mga clouds and mountain sa kabilang ibayo. Yes, may mga hurdles, pero we made it through. Sabi ko nga, if you want to be happy, then fight for it. Mag megarun tayo for happiness kasi we all deserve it.

One night for you, more for me! Good morning Galera!

Reptiles...

2009-04-06T21:14:00.002+08:00

Here's two of my favorite pictures, taken from Lumphini Park in Bangkok, Thailand.

Just Letting It Be...

2009-04-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

I know letting go is hard? But can letting go of something that wasn't there be any harder?

I know that there's no point in crying over spilled milk but what if there was no really milk in the first place? what if it was just an empty glass? will it be less painful? will it just be alright? how can you let go when there is nothing to let go from? how can you move on? and move on from where or from what?

They say that the hardest of part is when you ask yourself "what if'", and I know that there is such a thing that "we could have been" but I know, we are above that already. They say that we had was something more mature than the rest, that "that something" is more deep than what it seemed. Maybe and maybe not, I wouldn't know...

I am not perfect, and even if people see me as a mature person, there will always be times that I will be childish about things, that I will be in touch with the kid in me! Sometimes I might even ask myself what happened? That it could have been "US". And sometimes I will tell myself that "we could have been happy together!" But at the end of the day, I will be me, and all I have are "what ifs"... So as I go back to reality and myself, let me just say this:

I am not letting go! I'm just simply... letting it be!

Bells

2009-04-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

I can here the bells...

Quicksand

2009-04-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

Can you feel lost when actually everything is just falling into their proper places?

I know for a fact that when everything's a mess and nothing is going right, most of the time you feel lost! But how about if everything is going right... or at least almost everything is going right, can you honestly feel lost?

I tried to sit down and think through it and everything's seems to be normal, everything's seems alright... I don't think everything's perfect but everything's perfectly fine! And even though that's the case, even though it seems that everything's just in their proper places... it somehow doesn't feel right!

I know that sometimes, not everything that's right will make you happy but I know someday it will make sense... someday it just might make you happy! What I don't understand is that how is it possible that everything's around you is perfectly fine and yet it makes you uncomfortable, makes you feel lost???

one of them blog stuffs

2009-03-31T15:07:00.000+08:00

Here is the analysis:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

About Me

2009-03-28T14:59:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Eraserheads Live: The Final Set

2009-03-08T16:36:00.000+08:00

Friday night, around 1130PM, a friend texted me asking if I'd want to accompany her in watching "Eraserheads Live: The Final Set" in MOA the night after. I cannot reaaly say that I am a HUGE fan of Eheads but I have always liked them, I maybe not the biggest fan they have but I am a fan nevertheless.

Eraserheads is probably one of the best, if not "the best", rock band in the history of Original Pinoy Music. You can say that they are probably "the Beatles" of the Philippines. But as the old saying goes, evrything good or bad, must come to an end.

As the band sang thier marvelous hits through thier used to be frontman Ely Buendia, you can't help but be nostalgic... As I sang along with them, I feel sad and happy at the same time. Sad in a way that it has finally come to an end, and happy that I was there to hear them play for the last time.

I had goosebumps all over!

"At ngayon
Di pa rin alam
Kung ba't tayo nandito
Puwede bang itigil muna
Ang pag-ikot ng mundo"

As the band sang thier last song for the night, the infamous "Ang Huling El Bimbo", and as fireworks lit the night sky, Ely set to fire the famous "Sticker Happy" organ with a lighter fluid... it was indeed thier Final Set!

And then there they were.... The Eraserheas!

"Forever would be fine"

QUOTE

2009-03-06T15:26:00.000+08:00

I still can't get over "Reveloutionary Road" and here to quote probably the most compelling scene in the movie:

April Wheeler: So now I'm crazy because I don't love you, right? Is that the point?

Frank Wheeler: No! Wrong! You're not crazy, and you do love me. That's the point, April.

April Wheeler: But I don't. I hate you. You were just some boy who made me laugh at a party once, and now I loathe the sight of you. In fact, if you come any closer, if you touch me or anything, I think I'll scream.

Frank Wheeler: Oh, come on, stop this April. [He touches her for an instant and she screams at the top of her lungs before walking away. He chases after her]

Frank Wheeler: Fuck you, April! Fuck you and all your hateful, goddamn - [He breaks a chair against a wall]

April Wheeler: What are you going to do now? Are you going to hit me? To show me how much you love me?

Frank Wheeler: Don't worry, I can't be bothered! You're not worth the trouble it would take to hit you! You're not worth the powder it would take to blow you up. You are an empty, empty, hollow shell of a woman. I mean, what the hell are you doing in my house if you hate me so much? Why the hell are you married to me? What the hell are you doing carrying my child? I mean, why didn't you just get rid of it when you had the chance? Because listen to me, listen to me, I got news for you - I wish to God that you had!

Revolutionary Road

2009-03-03T14:54:00.000+08:00

I have recently watched "Revolutionary Road" and I still can't get over the fact that Leonardo DiCaprio was not nominated for an Oscar, I am not very sure if it was due to technicalities that the movie didn't receive any nominations from the academy this year. Almost every year, Leo makes a great movie with great performance and depth, he's really showing depth in his acting and still no acting nominations from The Academy.

I must admit that I have always loved Leo ever since, way back "Marvin's Room" to "Romeo and Juliet" to "Catch Me If You Can" to "Body of Lies" and of course who could ever forget "Titanic".

Kate always give good performances in portraying each character she have had, and she had 6 best actress nomination, the 6th being her first golden statue. She even won Best Actress (Revelutionary Road) and Best Supporting Actress (The Reader) in 2009's Gloden Globe Awards.

For me, Leo's performance in Revolutionary Road was outstanding, it was simply great and heartfelt, he became Frank Wheeler. Probably, for me the best part was that of the day before Kate Winslet tried to abort thier baby herself. The scene where they were having an arguement when Kate told Leo that she doesn't love him, that she actually hates him. Leo was astounding, you could see in him the shock, the love, the hurt and all other mixed emotions he has. You can't help but feel for him in that scene.

Every movie he makes, he gave extra-ordinary performance, and almost all the time, he was snubbed of a nomination from the academy. Come to think of it, when was the last time he got nominated in Oscar's?

To quote one line from April Wheeler, "no one forgets the TRUTH, everyone just gets better in lying"

Flower Power

2009-02-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

Random Shots

2009-02-22T23:03:00.002+08:00

Random pictures of anything:

Black and Whites

2009-02-21T22:49:00.000+08:00

Random shots from my stash in black and white:

Friday; Weekend!

2009-02-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

It's friday again! 6 months ago, I would've been ecstatic knowing that weekend is already here. But with me trying my best efforts to be a good boy or a man or a gay man for that matter, I found myself thinking so hard on how to spend my so called weekend.

I left office at around almost 8PM, and since I have no where to go, no date and even no friends to meet up with, I decided to head home.

At home, I found out that my eldest sister is already preparing for work and that my other sister's boyfriend is staying for the weekend. Instantaneously, I decided that I will be going out sooner than I thought. And since Mark isn't replying to my messages, I guess i'll be watching a movie again... alone!

I heard "He's Just Not That Into You" is good!

?%@&#*

2009-02-19T17:49:00.000+08:00

If only you can just close your heart from the things you don't want to feel... then everything will just be perfect!

I can't describe how I'm feeling right now, all I know is that, I honestly think I don't deserve this... I don't desserve this kind of treatment. Such harsh words.

Get me outta here and make it quick!

The Email

2009-02-18T15:22:00.000+08:00

As days passed, I've been checking my email religiously... patiently waiting, impatiently hoping! It has been a week now.

As I open my yahoo mail after a meeting yesterday, there it was... lying in my inbox!

The email... and this will be the start of something new... *Big Smile*

Wanting to have my own Marley

2009-02-16T21:03:00.000+08:00

Valentine's day passed with me having no one to hold and spend it with, come to think of, it has always been like that for the past few years now... me being single.

And since I would look like a total loser to go out alone that day, when almost everyone around you is spending the day in two's... I decided to just stay home and meet with some friends come very late evening.

Sunday came and although my sisters are home, they are sleeping since they came from a shift the night before and will still be having one sunday night. I asked some friends if they would want to see a movie. Fortunate enough that I have one friend who is available and would want to give me company.

After deciding that we are to meet at 6PM, I busied myself with old DVDs at home and watched HSM 2. I decided to hit the shower after the movie and started preparing myself. I fetched Shun and head to the nearest mall. We decided to watch Marley and Me.

I have heard from friends that it was a good movie about the "Man's Bestfriend".

It was a feel good movie, having to feel a little sad if I may just say the day before, it was a welcome changed that I was actually laughing while watching the movie. It was such a feel good movie that I wanted to adopt or even buy a dog for myself after. Our dog, which is a doberman, died last month and probably the reason why the movie moved me into almost tears as the movie progressed. Having said that, I had the strongest urged to buy a new dog.

I still remember that day when we learned that our beloved doberman died, my mom cried. Although I wasn't able to spend as much time with our dog since she's in the province, I felt sad about the news, afterall I always try to play with her when I'm in Nueva Ecija.

Marley and Me, was in more ways than one, a funy and a toucing story. It has that warmth and wouldn't keep you from really laughing even if you are in a movie house. I believed what Owen Wilson said in one of the scenes... I can't remember exactly what he said but it was something like "when you give your heart to a dog, it will give his heart to you in exchange"

If I will still be spending my valentines day alone next year, I just hope I'd just be spending it with my very own Marley.

Bangkok Love Story

2009-01-26T23:27:00.000+08:00

I have always been a fan of movies, and I have had my share of watching them. I know there are a lot of people who have seen more than I do, there's no doubt about that, but I can still say that I have my fair share.

For me, watching movies makes me relax, it's one way for me to escape the world that I know, the world that I have lived in. I have had encouragements from friends to watch certain films because it was great and most of it are actually great films. But there are also a number of films that, I don't know if I was just expecting too much but, sad to say failed me.

I have recently watched the much talked about "Bangkok Love Story", and to say that I loved it, would be an understatement. Surprisingly, for me it lived up to my expectation,s if not exceeded. For a gay indie film, it was excellent.

Two things that made me really really love this film are it's cinematography and acting.

The cinematography was simply amazing. Very strong angles, right execution of panning, perfect lighting. It was a work of art, well at least for me. The actors were brilliant that they can actually act!

Of course the direction was great, set design was artistically made and the story was surreal but engaging and would keep you wanting for more!

I was so in love with the film that it haunted me...

I can't help but wonder, is it really possible to wait with uncertainties for something that you really wanted even if takes you forever? In a world that works with assurance and surrounded by certainties, can LOVE really survive the uncertain?

Every Click of my Shutter

2009-01-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

In my pursuit to hone my skills in my hobby. I sometimes take my time alone and head to one place I could sit, take pictures, drink coffee and just relax!

These are the times that I believe I am a loner. Sometimes I really find it more comfortable to be alone than to be with someone. I still have a lot to learn, but I take my time, enjoying everytime I press my shutter, every lense adjustment and every download of my pictures to my pc. Taking one step at a time!

As what they would always say, it's not the destination that matters but the journey it self. If eventually I would decide to make a living out of this hobby, I still don't know. But what is important to me right now is that I am having fun with every click of my sutter...

Before the Sun Sets

2009-01-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

I have always been fascinated with sunsets! Sometimes I even take the time to go some place where I can just stare at the setting sun. And sometimes capture it in my pictures. So calming and serene!

The amazing hues of colors it gives to earth with its very last minutes, and how it varies each day.

I guess it also gives me a certain feeling of security, security that tomorrow can be better. It gives me strings of hope that whatever happens today, whether good or bad, an oppurtunity to make it better tomorrow is just around the corner.

Welcome Cousins!

2009-01-10T23:15:00.002+08:00

I have always believed that I came from a very close knit family and when I say close knit, this doesn't only apply to my immediate family.

As I welcome the new year, I also welcome 2 new cousins! Although they have been born months back it's only now that I have formally meet them in person.

To you my dear cousins, Welcome!

I hope we can all say "Let's drink to that" soon....

One of Them Plans

2009-01-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog for the longest time and as a new year starts together with my other plans...

this blog should always be updated! =)

Wall-E

2008-08-29T17:08:00.000+08:00

I have watched Wall-E last week and for me to say that the film is good is an understatement.

The film is a testament to the old and cliche saying that "action speaks louder than words". It was amazing that a mere sound of collective beeps and simple sounds can convey a thousand words. I knew that the movie was good but I never expected that it was that good! The movie conveyed the idea that love is something to be showed and not just something that can be expressed thru words.

Wall-E (Waste Allocation Load Lifter Earth-Class) is the last of the robots who are tasked to clean-up Earth. Interesting as it may seem, the robot developed a personality, and an inquisitive personality that is, which makes it more interesting lest complicated. to top that he is lonely! until one day the people in space sent a robot on Earth to check if life can be sustained again, ergo EVE (Extraterrestrial Vegetation Evaluator).

Instantaneously Wall-E developed an affection to EVE. Talking to EVE with gestures and beeps and simple sounds that made the movie so adorable. It gave me that certain feeling of wanting to be wanted, of needing to be needed.

It was indeed a good movie to watch... a movie worth your time.

Cityscapes

2008-08-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

More shots from Bruce and Kodak Ektachrome E100

Pacific Star Building, Makati Ave.

Makati Ave, Burgos St.

BPI Buendia Center, Sen Gil Puyat Ave.

Makati Ave, Burgos St.

Busy Streets = Busy Lights

2008-08-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

Playing with Bruce and his B setting... the lights and the busy streets of Makati City

Beijing Olympics

2008-08-26T02:08:00.000+08:00

I was scanning through one of the forums I joined and stumbled upon this one thread about the Beijing Olympics...

I am not sure if this was published but it was stated in the thread that it was...

to see the the internet article click here

and my two cents worth...

the article is unnecessary and uncalled for! Yes they have the freedom to write a story about these things but is it really necessary to put "almost zero chance of landing a medal"? if the newspaper is really up to writing something about the beijing olympics, then why not write it in this manner? why not write something in the perspective of "despite the the giant athletes of the other countries, we were able to send 15 athletes hoping to give glory to our country... or something like "even with the lack of financial and physical support, 15 athletes will fly to Beijing China to compete in this year's Olympics"...

I used to compete in swimming, maybe not as big as olympics, but this kind of article will never strike me as challenging... this is nothing but purely demoralizing and degrading... I have had comments in the same context and it is very far from being a challenge more so if it's coming from your own allies...

Pity when some people are trying very hard to somehow make us filipinos proud and yet in our very own backyard, some people are scrutinizing and degrading these very people who are brave enough to take a step forward, who are courages enough to bring us forward...

is it really so much to keep an optimistic mind nowadays? so much to being patriotic....

Mga Parisukat na Larawan...

2008-08-19T20:48:00.000+08:00

Ang huling limang larawan...

Bata, bata, paano ka ginawa?

ang tubig na nagbibigay ng buhay...

simbahan... isang mapayapang lugar!

ang mga mangingisda...

ako ang lalaki sa breakwater...

Being a Lomographer

2008-08-19T20:35:00.000+08:00

Here are additional photos from my very first set of films processed using my Holga 120CFN:

Five Star Ice Cream : the Luneta way!

pussy cat, pussy cat, where have you been?

in a world of strangers, it's nice to have someone by your side...

my fellow lomographers...

sa ilalim ng puno ng kamatis at sa pagbabantay ni Lapu-Lapu

light lamps

the new age Ewoks!

a creepy hallway

an attempt for a multiple expsoure

the famous Ped Xing...

My very first set of Lomo pics

2008-08-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

I have been fascinated with lomography for quite awhile now... and here are some of my very first pictures using my very own "Bruce".

I will be posting my next set of pics soon! =)

What is Lomography?

2008-07-07T08:55:00.000+08:00

What is lomography?

Technically:

Lomography, is a registered trademark of Lomographische AG (Austria), is a movement that, via the Lomography Society International, promotes the use of Lomo cameras — primarily and most famously the LC-A but also cameras as unlike this as the fisheye lomography camera — and a "shoot from the hip" attitude. (Many outsiders regard it as merely a sales gimmick to drive sales of these cameras at inflated prices.) Viewed as either a modern impressionistic art movement for photography to create images of everyday life or a simple (and effective) marketing ploy, Lomography has attracted a large international following around "The 10 rules" http://www.camerapedia.org/wiki/Lomography

Casually:

“lomo for me is my own little way of gathering memories of special moments spent with friends, family, or spent alone on the road or elsewhere” - riaholic

“is my guide - my beacon and that alarm clock that wakes me up every time I fall into one of those stupors brought on by a plain, workaday, ants-marching type of boring life.” -whitemumu

“i think lomo is not just about the camera ..as i read somewhere, think of it as punk music..you dont have to use a specific guitar to play punk..well u dont even have to be a musician to be a punk..you dont even have to look like a punk… Lomo can have a very loose definition that eventually that people may argue that it doesnt really exist or is not a valid movement. but we know its here, we get to be part of it and have fun..so what else matters ?” – sparklemind

“lomo is love...” lola melay

“it provides holy mess to my otherwise orderly life.”-pixiecorpse

“is probably the reason why I'm still into photography...” –suplada80

“Lomography is photography, painting and chemistry combined.”- jamkablam

“What Lomography offers is a completely different and fresh perspective into looking at and seeing things. It transcends the trappings of the everyday, workaday world and invites one to think.” –cruzron

Taken from www.lomomanila.ph forums article by wraithblade

And as for me:

Lomography is all about the attitude! =)

I Believe and it is Unexpected

2008-06-05T01:56:00.000+08:00

I always say, "Love comes to those who believe it"... and if I may just add, "It comes in your most unexpected time/way".

I have been single for quite sometime, my friends often ask if I'm seeing anyone or if I'm happy, I told them I am single, and happy because I am with good and caring friends and for now it's more than enough. It was, not until that simple message of "Hello".

I came home from work one night, and found an online message in one of my networking sites in the world wide web. An exchange of online messages happened next. An exchange of YM Id's and the rest became history.

When I opened that online site that night I wasn't looking for "love" and I wasn't expecting to find a special someone. Things just happened, and could it be any better than this? I wouldn't think so, everything just fell in thier proper places.

love really does come to those who believe it and it sometimes do in your most unexpected time and way...

What's in my Name?

2008-06-02T12:20:00.000+08:00

What does Jan Wiley mean?

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

The Last Time

2008-05-28T17:29:00.000+08:00

The first time I fell in love was long ago.
I didn't know how to give my love at all.
The next time I settled for what felt so close.
But without romance, you're never gonna fall.
After everything I've learned;
Now it's finally my turn.
This is the last time I'll fall... in love.
The first time we walked under that starry sky,
there was a moment when everything was clear.
I didn't need to ask or even wonder why,
because each question is answered when your near.
and I'm wise enough to know when a miracle unfolds,
this is the last time i'll fall in love.
Now don't hold back, just let me know.
Could i be moving much too fast or way too slow.
'Cause all of my life, I've waited for this day.
To find that once in a lifetime, this is it,
I'll never be the same.
You'll never know what it's taken me to say these words.
And now that I've said them, they could never be enough.
As far as I can see, there's only you and only me.

This is the last time I'll fall in love.
Last time i'll fall in love.
The last time i'll fall... in love.

A Sweet Thought!

2008-05-28T03:13:00.000+08:00

here's a daily those of my horoscope:

"be ambitious in your love life goals. Shoot for the stars and you might actually hit one. It's all about positive thinking and self-fulfilling prophecy. you are in control of your own fate."

I just can't help but smile!

A Weekend in Paradise

2008-05-20T08:27:00.003+08:00

And there goes my weekend!

I started my weekend probably a little early… I started it Thursday, and I started it by a trip going to the Manila Domestic Airport and a flight going to Kalibo, Aklan. This weekend is my much awaited trip to Boracay Island. I am spending a weekend there with some former colleagues and good friends. I have heard a lot of good things about Boracay and I have been wanting to see its exquisite beauty, why so many people are drawn to its powdery like white sand.

We arrived at Kalibo International Airport a little past 8 in the morning and we are on time. Kudos to Cebu Pacific for a safe and on time flight. We hailed a van that would transport us to Tabon Port since the boats bound to Boracay island can not use Jetty Port because of the weather. And so my Boracay adventure began Thursday morning!

The trip would have been perfect except for "Cosme". He visited the Philippines in a less more appropriate timing, although it was not raining in Boracay, but the sun also eluded the island, and that being said, we just have to make the most of our weekend getaway. Occasional light rain showers but nevertheless, I have had a great time. Nothing beats a weekend in the beach.

Manila Domestic Airport, 6:55AM

as we look for our first lunch in Boracay, we head for D'Mall.

it was a long walk to Friday's so might as well make the most of it... STRIKE A POSE!

gaging on the beach...

Khae, Wiley, Lui, Diane and Chad

Camwhores

Chillin at Hey Jude!

It was one of the shortest long weekend I have ever had, if only we can stay a little longer... but we figured that the island is not going anywhere. My weekend was a blast! I wonder if I can share a weekend here with someone special, it would be nice for sure.

I am now back in the metro, and gone back to my old routine. As I face the daily challenges as a struggling yuppie, I can look forward to those weekends I'd be spending in Boracay! I will definitely come back soon! =)

My Last Rendezvous With Summer

2008-05-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

Summer is almost over, in fact, here in the metro it's raining almost everyday, like as if its already the start of the rainy season. but that doesn't stop me from my last hurrah of summer!!

Summer is almost equivalent to the beach. When summertime comes, you can never miss out the beach because if you do, you might just be tagged as a LOSER! people would always want to go to the beach even once during summer... to get that natural tan that some if not most people are just crazy about... if you have that perfect tan line, you have got yourself the most "IN" fad in this time of the year. It's like a statement already... and if you have it, then flaunt it! *(",)*

Of course when we are talking about beaches, one name would always pop out! It's like beach = Boracay! As much as people are crazy about Bora, I have never been there! i really don't know why, maybe I get preoccupied with a lot of things... and maybe I like having the easier way to go to a beach and that would mean Puerto Galera! But this time, I have yet to end my ignorance in this so called paradise... i have yet to put an end to my being naive to such a wonderful place such as Boracay! With much enthusiasm and excitement... I will conquer Bora this weekend!

I can't wait to feel that powdery like sand of the Boracay Island and feel the heat of the arrogant sun...

or probably spend time under the sun to get my so called tan line...

so come Thursday, Bora... here I come!

What I'm looking for in a Relationship

2008-05-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

Wiley, you're looking for a Best Friend

There are many different ways to look at relationships, but for you, finding a best friend, the one person you share everything with, is the most important. Some people focus more on the romantic image of a soul mate to last the span of time, but you probably prefer the reality of making the most of every moment of every day. And who better to live those moments with than someone who's true blue through and through?

The ideal match for you is probably someone who can anticipate the next word out of your mouth and who laughs at the punch line before you even tell it. Chances are it's important to you that they'd expand your circle of friends, introduce you to new places, faces, and experiences, too. Whether this relationship is here for the short- or the long- term, you're a take-it-as-it-comes kind of person, with few expectations or fairytales to live up to. You'd take your constant companion and trusted secret-keeper over a fairy princess or Prince Charming, any day. Whether you realize it or not, there's someone out there who feels the same way about you. Like you, that someone is looking for the one person to be their best friend — both in the bedroom and out.

Breakfast in Bed

2008-05-13T18:45:00.000+08:00

I'm actually fond in taking psychological exams on-line... http://www.tickle.com/ actually provides the most variety of psychological exams from serious stuff to lifestyle to probably even the most mundane things there is out there... here is one of the results I have had in one of the exams I took. this one is about my Romantic Fantasy

Wiley, it looks like your romantic fantasy is the Breakfast in Bed

There are few things better than waking up to the smell of hot coffee and sizzling bacon, especially when it's right under your nose. Ahh, breakfast in bed. It's more intimate than a candlelit dinner, yet as comfortable as an old pair of slippers.

Trusty sweethearts and reliable soul mates are the men of your dreams, not mysterious strangers from foreign lands. Whether it's cuddling next to a roaring fire, feeding each other pizza straight from the box, or gazing at the stars, your fantasy doesn't need to venture too far from reality. And that's cozy.

the wonders of Friendster

2008-05-09T19:01:00.000+08:00

Back in my previous company I basically have all the access in internet except Friendster. yep that's correct, except friendster, I have access to Myspace, Multiply, downelink, and what have you's but of course i don't have G4M.

I transferred companies September last year, and ironic as it may seem, I don't have access to everything but friendster! Yes! You got it right, the only thing I can access here in the office is friendster and take note, Yahoo! =) so much as i want to update my other networking sites, I can only update them at home.

hehehe, my multiply site used to be my most updated networking site before, but with these recent changes in my internet life... i have come to enjoy friendster again... =)

and as everyone who has friendster.... here's my featured friends... my beloved aristocrata! =P Friendster has served it purpose to me these past few months and that is to keep in touch with long last colleagues, highschool friends and even long lost friends...

it also made me updated with friends i hardly see and meet... friends I can't talk to all the time!

Emails, emails and more emails...

2008-05-09T18:36:00.000+08:00

As part of my daily routine in the office, I have to answer tons and tons of emails. But sometimes, if your inbox gets this much of emails, you would wish you have another job....

Don't get me wrong, I love my Job and I love it so much but man, if your inbox contains 3035 emails and 177 unread? man, that's a lot of emails..... =)

if you receive this much of emails everyday... i sometimes wonder if my day is consumed in just answering all these emails... but then again some emails may just end up in trash! hehehe =)

Again... another year has passed!

2008-05-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

I make it a point that when this time of the year comes I always try to look back the past year. I try to reminisce what had happened, how was the year to me and how it made me who I am now.

The past year for me has been eventful, but for the most part... fruitful and very liberating.

A friend and I watched a movie yesterday night. Last full show in Powerplant Mall, and the movie ended at about 11:30PM. It was a feel good movie, lots of kilig scenes and that it made me feel good. it made me feel that everything is going to be fine....

"it's not enough that you love me for who I am, but you should also love me for who I am not"

and as I welcome another year to my so called "crazy life" I thank everyone who has been a part of it... the whole 24 years of it!

I need not mention your names one by one... but you know who you are... i just want to let all of you know that you've been a part of me and that you will always be a part of whoever I will become...

Cheers!

Take care Nadj...

2008-04-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

I have received a letter from one of my officers today, though I am already expecting for this letter, I guess I could say that I am still in denial.

I came to this company seven months ago with only the knowledge and experience I have in my pocket. Not expecting anything but just to do my part of the bargain which is to do the job which I was hired for.

She became a friend instantly. It was never hard to befriend her, although she’s with a different team at that time, she has that sunny and engaging personality. Someone you could easily have a small talk with.

Seven months has passed and our fondness with each other grew to become a lasting friendship. She became my pillar of strength, my grain of salt, my critique and of course my true friend. Not that she’s the only one I have here, but she’s the closest I have.

Sometimes, you already know that you have to let go because it’s for the better but most of the time you don’t want to because for the fear I guess, for the fear that what if no one takes her used to be placed in your so called life. For the fear that she might forget, the things you used to do together, for the fear that she might forget the memories and worse, the friend you are to her!

So as I read her letter, and as I sign received at the bottom part of the page, I wish her well, I wish all the good and the best for her. As I sign my name, I sign with it the entire friend that I am to her.

And as I forward your resignation letter to HR, I look forward to the great beyond our friendship not just in the four corners of this office but to all the different people we will meet together or apart.

Take care Nadj, things will never be the same for sure, but I am here and just here not just as your supervisor but most of all as your friend.

Forget About Me

2008-03-01T06:40:00.000+08:00

i got a private message from a very dear friend giving me this link....

http://profile.imeem.com/A9XwNc/music/hQzm5CTe/little_bit_forget_about_me_prod_by_stargate_2007_wwwr/
and she simply said: for you bebe! love you mwah!!!

here's the lyrics of the song...

HmmWhoaaa
OohhhYeahh

You Said It Wasn't
Gonna Be Like It Was Before
Then It Happened Again
Pushing Me Back Out The Door
Thought It Would Be Forreal This Time
Love Me Forget About The Signs
So Now What Do I DoNow,
That I Know That We're Through

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To EscapeThe Misery

Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

Too Late, Sorry
I Didn't Even Have The Chance
You Said You Were Happy
Baby, I Don't Understand
Gave You Everything You Asked For
And Was Ready To Give A Lot More
I Would've Given The World
Right In The Palm Of Your Hand

Wish That I Could Move On
Can't Let Go, It's Too Strong
Just Like That And Then You're Gone
Is This How You Wanted It To Be
Everything You Had To Say
Sent The Tears Right Down My Face
Now I'm Trying To EscapeThe Misery

Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me

Boy, My Heart Was True
And That You Can't Deny
Don't Be A Fool
And Walk Away From All The Lies
It's Up To You
Cause Heaven Knows I've Tried
Tell Me You're Still In Love

Yeahhhh Ohh
Why Don't You Love Me
The Way I Loved You
It Feels So Crazy
Cause I Dunno What I Did To You
If You're Gonna Hurt Me
Then Do It Quickly
Cause I'm Tired Of Cryin
If You Don't Wanna Stick Around
Then, Baby, Forget About Me
Forget About Me...
Forgett about me..
Oh... baby oh...

The problem with Hello is Goodbye...

2008-02-11T01:43:00.000+08:00

Breaking up with someone will never be easy...

but breaking up can also mean new life, new challenges and new future...

we may have closed one window but we can definitely leave the door wide open

I am melancholic for a wasted 2nd chance but I'm optimistic for a bright future ahead...

someday we will find our place in this urban jungle and we need to be contented with the repercussions of our own decisions

it may have been a roller coaster ride for me but for now let me just say thank you for the experience...

as i bid my goodbye... i will face the world head on because i know i have loved honestly and it's just not for me to keep...

love comes to those who believes it..

i know somewhere out there, there is someone waiting for the same exact thing that I can offer..

and until that time I know life will be good to me

Horoscope for the day

2008-02-10T13:41:00.000+08:00

read this horoscope for the day in one of my sites.... it somehow makes me feel good...

Are you in the midst of trying to make a decision? The good news is that, right now, you are as close to understanding what you really want as you have ever been. The bad news is that you're still not quite all the way there. So today, you need to just take that last leap of faith. You won't know the results for a while, so don't spend the rest of the night wringing your hands. Make the choice. Forget you made it. Then just move on with your life!

2007.. There year that was...

2008-02-06T01:38:00.000+08:00

1) WHERE DID YOU BEGIN 2007?
Ayala corner Paseo de Roxas

2) WHAT WAS YOUR STATUS ON VALENTINE'S DAY?
S-I-N-G-L-E...

3) WERE YOU IN SCHOOL?
attended some classes in PUP.

4) HOW DID YOU EARN YOUR MONEY?
working my ass off

5) DID YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL?
nope

6) DID YOU HAVE ANY ENCOUNTERS WITH THE POLICE?
none, thank god

7) WHERE DID YOU GO ON VACATION?
Baguio and Puerto Galera

8) WHAT DID YOU PURCHASE THAT WAS OVER $1000?
i wish i have that much to spend on something

9) MEET ANYONE NEW?
Yep!

10) DID YOU KNOW ANYBODY WHO PASSED AWAY?
Yes, a first cousin...

11) WAS ANYONE BORN?
none yet

12) DID YOU MOVE ANYWHERE?
yep... i moved in...

13) HOW DID YOU CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY?
a simple celebration with few intimate friends

14) WHAT CONCERT/SHOWS/PLAYS DID YOU GO TO?
Cream 2007 if you can consider that...

15) ARE YOU REGISTERED TO VOTE?
Yes

16) WHO DID YOU WANT TO WIN BIG BROTHER?
Rizza Samson

17) WHERE DO YOU LIVE NOW?
in my dreams..

18) HOW DID YOU SPEND YOUR SUMMER BREAK?
just a trip to the beach

19) WHAT'S ONE THING YOU THOUGHT YOU'D NEVER DO BUT DID IN 2007?
really love in its truest sense...

20) WHAT HAS BEEN YOUR FAVORITE MOMENT?
there's a lot!

21) WHAT'S SOMETHING YOU LEARNED ABOUT YOUR SELF?
that I'm capable of loving in it's truest sense

22) ANY NEW ADDITIONS TO YOUR FAMILY?
yes, a niece...

23) WHAT WAS YOUR WORST MONTH/DAY?
JULY

24) WHAT MUSIC WILL YOU REMEMBER 2007 BY?
For You by Kenny Latimore and All This Time by Sylver

25) WHO HAS BEEN YOUR FUNNIEST BUDDY?
hmmm, there's a lot who tried and keep me laughing

26) MADE NEW FRIENDS?
yes

27) NEW BEST FRIENDS?
sorta...

28) FAVORITE NIGHT OUT?
Club Govt

29) WHAT SPORTING EVENTS DID YOU ATTEND?
some badminton games

30) WHAT WAS YOUR BEST MONTH/S?
October

31) OVERALL, HOW WOULD YOU RATE THIS YEAR?
it was a very long learning experience... it was great!

32) OTHER THAT HOME, WHERE DID YOU SPEND MOST OF YOUR TIME?
in the office...

33) CHANGE YOUR HAIRSTYLE?
Yes, shaved my head

34) HAVE ANY CARS?
none

35) HOW OLD DID YOU TURN THIS YEAR?
24

36) DID HAVE NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION?
None

37) DO ANYTHING EMBARASSING?
A lot!

38) BUY ANYTHING NEW FROM EBAY?
none!

39) GET MARRIED?
Nope

40) BE HONEST-- DID YOU WATCHED AMERICAN IDOL?
yes, as much as i can

41) DID YOU GET SICK THIS YEAR?
Yes

42) BEEN SNOWBOARDING?
i wish...

43) ARE YOU HAPPY TO SEE 2007 GO?
not really sure...

44) MEAN OR NICE?
nice

45) DEFINING MOMENT OF 2007?
it was a very refreshing year for me..

Stardust...

2008-01-22T05:32:00.000+08:00

I never believe that there is one person here on Earth that is meant to spend his/her life alone... our decisions make our destiny...

here's a line from one my fave movie... i wish for everyone that they may find what they really are looking for in this lifetime...

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate... It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves... You could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and... What I'm trying to say, Tristan is... I think I love you. Is this love, Tristan? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.

Apples to Oranges

2008-01-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

I have always wondered if an apple tree can bear oranges as fruits... maybe but I really don’t think so! No matter how much effort we put in thinking through about it... you can never see oranges in an apple tree.

I have often wondered why sometimes it feels that I am different from my friends... they say that friends are your brothers and sisters in your past life. There’s also this thing that friends are your soul brothers/sisters, if this is true then how come, sometimes I feel really different from my friends.

when I was younger, i have always wondered why mom was a little densed... why sometimes, it seems that she couldn't care less... why when I was younger she never takes sides when my aunts are in a fight... i couldn't seem to decipher why she acts like as if she's not affected at all when in fact we are directly affected... or at that time, i thought we are affected... affected in a sense that we can't be with our cousins in one place since their moms are not in good terms...

Back then, I can't seem to figure how can she be like that when other times she can be so caring and loving and even helpful... but now that I've come with age... it made perfect sense!

when I look at my mother now, i see a spitting image of me... not that we have the same features but I see a lot more of my self in her than in my father... I can see in her how I am towards things... how I react on things and how I act on things... not of course in every bits and pieces but more likely we are kinda the same.

people may perceive me as a snob, not-a-care-in-the-world kinda guy, but with friends who really knows me.. they would say differently, or so i thought... hehehe

when I look back to how I was so confused and dumbfounded when I was younger... it makes me smile... because back then as much as I was bedazzled, I am as certain now more than ever that it made perfect sense...

you don't have to take sides to show you care... you just have to let them know you do...

now if ever you see an apple tree with triangular or rectangular fruits... don't be confused, whatever the shape its fruits will be... it will always be apples....

The year that was

2008-01-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

I could say that 2007 was the year where I learned alot the most... it did taught me a lot of things and about life in general...

2007, I can say is both good and harsh to me...

given me things I can barely grasp with my own two hands...

let me feel emotions that I can hardly contain...

gave me experiences beyond my wildest imaginations...

things that left me dumbfounded...

good thing is that I have some friends who kept me grounded and sane, a family who kept my feet firmly placed on the ground... people who never failed to remind me my rightful place in this urban jungle....

as I bid goodbye the year that was... let me face the new year head on...

On Pains...

2007-08-23T10:26:00.000+08:00

Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breath deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more.

Fairy Tales

2007-08-14T02:25:00.000+08:00

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Your Personal Space

2007-08-01T12:22:00.000+08:00

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

Thank you Both...

2007-07-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

They say that in this lifetime you’d meet people all the time. People whom can be your friend, your enemy, an acquaintance and people whom can be someone you’d share your life intimately.

I am the type of person, though always seen in the scene, am not sure if I can call myself a sociable person. Even if I do love going out, I am as private as I can be…

In the life that I have lived, I have made a lot of friends, I know I have made enemies as well but I know I am friendly for the most part, and there are these 2 guys that I know are worth keeping…

It’s funny that our friendship is unconventional in a way that I call them Inay (Mom) and Itay (Dad), and they actually call me “nak”. And I am actually their first born. Not literally of course!

These guys I know are someone I can trust and rely on in almost everything. They may don’t know much about my whereabouts or what’s going on in my head because I don’t open that much, but I know I can count on them. I don’t really open much, not just to them but to most of my friends, I guess that’s something about me that I have to deal with but then again that’s another story to tell. I know that they are very much willing to listen only if I would talk.

This group that we fondly call family eventually grew, now, I have sisters and brothers, I have uncles and aunts, and all the more, the fun just keeps growing… we somehow manage to be there not just for laughter but for tears as well.

I know I would still meet a lot of people along the way, I know I would eventually make friends and enemies alike… we can’t really say what’s in store for us for the next couple of years, if I would still be here or if these 2 guys are still here, but whatever fate gives me…I know, I’d always look back to this day and would always feel grateful that I have my Inay and my Itay.

To you both, more more love, stay strong and keep the fire burning! Cheers!

Books

2007-07-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

I can’t remember anymore the first time I fell in love with reading. I can’t remember what novel it was or was it a fairy tale. I just know that right now, I love reading more than anything… I read a lot, almost all kinds, but give me novels, fiction, and self help type of books anytime…

Last night when I was watching one of my favorite series Ally Mcbeal, yes, I love Ally Mcbeal and I have the whole set. I don’t know, but out of nowhere, it just dawned on me why did I fell in love with books… more often than not, it can captivate my emotions, to the extent that it can make me cry…

For me reading can be very relaxing… unlike to others that it can stress their eyes. When I’m reading, I retreat to my own world. In reading, I am compelled to visualize what is being described in the book. I need to create a picture of it in my mind. I need to use my imagination to see a clearer picture.

It is in reading that I feel in control of everything… like the author can maneuver things the way he wanted it to be… not so much like in the real world, where you can never direct the outcome.

I can say that books are my comfort zone, in there I find peace, in there I find comfort.

When the real world is all fucked up; I retreat to my books, to open my mind, to open my imagination, to make me believe that everything can be okay, that it can be better… don’t get me wrong, I still live in the real world, but somehow it helps me to feel good that somehow everything can be perfect even if it’s only in the books…

OK, so now I have a bag..

2007-07-04T23:11:00.000+08:00

I used to hate carrying bags around, even if I’m going to work, or even back in college. But recent events change that when I finally saw the importance of having a bag from time to time.

Now that I carry a bag to work and sometimes even when going somewhere, lets try to dissect what’s inside my bag.

Organizer- my hard earned Starbucks organizer, I tend to forget some stuffs and occasions and gatherings or date with friends… so I try to keep track with my organizer.

Perfume- oh well I am developing my love with scents, my new flavor of the month, Herrera Aqua by Carolina Herrera.

ID- ok, of course I need some identification.

Digital Camera- I am a camwhore, need I say more?

Pens- of course I have to have pens handy…

Post-its- for when leaving short notes and short sweet nothings… hehehe!

Toothbrush- always keep a fresh breath, you’ll never know when you’ll be lip-locking! Kidding! I interview applicants, and so I have to keep my breath fresh.

And of course my Pouch Bag!

So what’s inside my pouch bag? Are you kidding me?!? Of course you have face powder, mascara, lip gloss, eye shadow, etc. etc. HAHAHAHA!

No way!

Here’s what’s inside my pouch bag!

My Sony Cyber shot charger, Digital Camera Data Cable, My phone charger, My SE data cable, and my SE earphones

I am Lost

2007-06-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

Life played a trick on me, and it swept me off my feet… I am ready to stand up and pick up everything but I can’t seem to figure out my way.

I am lost.

I know I can easily look back and retrace my steps but am I scared that there’s none left there for me. My instincts tell me that they’re just there but I can’t seem to see any.

Life if full of interruptions and complications.

In my adversity, I find solace and comfort in the fact that if you are on your lowest, there’s no other way but UP.

Deja Vu

2007-06-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

I was awakened by small kisses on my left shoulder blade and little murmurs, that’s when I noticed that there’s an arm wrapped around my waist. I shifted sides and there he was, half awake and half asleep, smiling occasionally. I stared at the beautiful face in front of me. It couldn’t get any better than this. He kissed me and uttered “good morning sweet prince”. He’d always call me that, even back when we were starting 6 years ago.

I wanted to stay there forever and probably freeze the time. It’s going to be a wonderful day for me. We cuddle some more for a couple of minutes before I finally get ready for work.

We both got up from bed; I headed for the shower, while he went straight outside our room to the kitchen. I did my usual morning rituals, shower, shave, brush my teeth, I was almost done with my tie when the door swung open to tell me that breakfast is ready.

We happily ate breakfast together, scrambled and sunny side up eggs, hotdogs, fried rice and toasted bread, I made coffee of course.

I kissed him goodbye, and I said I’ll be home around 7pm. Right before I shut the front door, he said he’ll be coming home a bit later because of an early evening meeting with a supplier, and asked me to cook dinner. I said sure.

I arrived at the office, doing the same thing, reports and analysis. Right before lunch time I received a text message saying “please drop by the grocery and get us toiletries, there’s no more in the cabinets, buy chips as well! Love you sweetheart!”

I finished everything in the office, and by 6pm I was heading the grocery. I got all the things we need and head home.

I just finished shower, when he arrived home. We ate dinner, chat about what happened to our days and usual TV before sleeping…

The following morning, it was me again, and only me… it was a dream! A dream of how I pictured my self and my partner will be… just happy being ourselves, being together. Why is it so hard for us to find this true happiness of having someone? Someone you can call the better half of you, someone whom you can count on with everything and anything there is.

Someday I will see this dream happening in front of my eyes, and I will just tell my self, déjà vu.

Goodbye my Lover, Goodbye my Friend

2007-06-13T08:37:00.000+08:00

In reality, no one can really say they’re a simple person. In one way or another there would always be one complex thing in each and every one of us. And besides who ever said being gay is simple?!? Hehe, it’s not simple, never going to be… because being gay is being FABULOUS!!! Hehe

I guess the one thing I can say good about me is that I never regret anything that happened in my life. No matter how difficult, or ugly, or frustrating, or heartbreaking the situation gets, I never regret anything.

Life has given me a lot of experiences already, that’s maybe the reason why I think maturely… but no matter what life teaches me, I remain true to my age if in regard with feelings, fragile and young.

Recent events in my life have been overwhelming, not that I’m complaining, I guess it’s a case of “TOO MUCH, TOO SOON”.

I have gained friends who treat one another as family, and I know that nothing can change that anymore, they will always be there for me, just the same for me to them… but like what everyone knows, you sometimes cannot have everything, there has to be balance somewhere.

“Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.” Is it true that lovers cannot be friends? I honestly don’t know… same as I don’t know if they really can. “You had been the one; you had been the one for me.” It’s the dreams you took away, because it may be over, but I know it doesn’t stop there.

I am hurting, and I know I will still hurt tomorrow, and the day after that, for how long it will take, I cannot really say… but I know, deep down me, I can honestly say that I do not regret anything, things happen for a reason, if I will learn anything from it, only time can tell. But for whatever it is worth, am very thankful for the experience, and the journey has been worthwhile.

“Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend. You had been the one; you had been the one for me”

Someone told me that “life has to be experienced and not idealized.” I will keep that in mind.

Conforming to the norms

2007-05-30T23:51:00.000+08:00

I was scanning old blogs from my old files and I found this one...

in this society that we have, we, in most cases than not, always conforms with the norms... sometimes the right that is being dictated by the society no longer is parallel to what is in webster's... we try as hard as we can to conform with these norms so we can be named righteous, to the point of being hypocritical.

most of us gays, again im not saying all, but most us thinks we are individualist, that we are different from the rest, the sad truth is, we all conforms to what is being didctated as the right thing to do... and that makes us all the same... we may have different expressions, or the way we speak, but looking at the big picture we all follow the same set of rules...

another example of conforming with the norms, the term BISEXUALS and GAYS. who really is bisexual and who really is gay?? most of us preffers to be named as bisexual, why? because its more nice to be called as such, because bisexuals are diferrent from being gay? because bisexuals are more accepted than gays?i dont really think so! I myself once wanted to be called bisexual rather than being called as gay... but at one point it made me think, what's really the difference...

some guys wanted to be called bisexuals, but if you would take a closer look, they are so desperately looking for hook ups in Bi-manila or guys4men... which i doubt if they would ever find someone from the opposite sex! guys who would always choose to log-in a gay infested chatroom rather than logging in a straight crowd. if they are so horny and if they really are who they say they are, then a girl or a guy wouldn't make any difference, because at the end of the day, it all comes down to one point, having to share the same bed... come friday or saturday night, you will see them strutting thier stuffs in the likes of Bed or Government, again another club for gay people...

I have encountered someone from the chatroom, he said he's bisexual and has a girlfriend but is desperately looking for a hook-up in Bi-Manila?!? if you really are what you are and if you really have a girlfriend... why would you still look for a guy whom can satisfy your lust... if your girl doesnt satisfy you in bed anymore and you are in dire need of someone from the same sex, then maybe its time to rethink your prefference and start accepting the fact that you are "GAY"!!!

i dont think we can ever escape from conforming with the norms that this society has dictated us, well atleast not in the near future, but somehow knowing what you want, doing what you want, and not what others want for you makes the difference...

Everything's going to be fine

2007-05-23T10:32:00.000+08:00

It's good to know what other people can say about you... be it good or not, you just have to take it constructively... somehow for me knowing what other people can say about me keeps me grounded... it keeps me on my feet.

It's also helps me to feel good when I feel down, it becomes a morale booster for me... It's a reminder that I am human and am capable of a lot of things... and that I have been good!

every time I came across this, it gives me a warm feeling, it's like saying everythings gonna be fine...

"I haven't been grateful to life lately, it isn't because of what i have or what i could have, it is because of the people who sorrounds my path. It has been a not so well journey for me... Being who i am now is not even a done deal yet. Life has been so full of instances, experiences and chances... chances that lead me to meet one person whom have shown how my path can be sorrounded with flowers and good things. He is my shoulder when i need a tap, he is my back when i need to turn around and see my past, he is my teardrop when i want to cry, he is my hand when i need a hold, he is my arms when i need a hug and he is my life when i need to live again. He faces me when the world turns its back away from me, he turns me into an angel when the devil in me sprungs... It is with just one look that make him say that... everything is gonna be fine, just fine. It has been heaven and earth being with this person... and i know it'll be forever. Thank you... I have met you."

to you who made this... thank you as well, I have learned a lot from you... and I promise to continue learning... we don't talk or see each other anymore but i know you're very happy and contented... am grateful for everything!

I Miss You Already

2007-05-15T20:30:00.000+08:00

I never thought I’d miss you this much so soon… it’s easier said than done, that it’s just 4 Pink Saturdays in Government, or 4 Yummy Fridays… it’s just 1 month, just 1 month… 4 hours had past and I’m missing you terribly…

Maybe it’s the thought that when I got home, you’ll not be there anymore… maybe it’s because you’ll not be there to give me a hug… or maybe because I will not hear the question “pang ilang yosi mo na yan?” hehehe! or “how was your day? Tired?” maybe because I will not hear these questions for the next 30 days…

I wanted to tell you a lot of things earlier but I couldn’t find the words… maybe I was thinking that my hug would communicate all that I wanted to say… I was hoping that my touch somehow showed you how much you will be missed…

I miss you so much, and I will be missing you just as much for the next 29 days…

The Thoughts I'm Keeping

2007-05-07T21:29:00.000+08:00

I always say “love comes to those who believe it”.

They say that change is good for you, that it keeps you on your toes. Well, if that's true, I should be a fucking ballerina by now. I know I have written before that am not really fond of change, but recent developments in my simple and sturdy life made me accept a lot of changes… changes in the way I think, the way I act, and changes even in my beliefs.

I’ve had my share of relationships, and I could possibly say “been there, done that”. In my previous relationships, if I see something wrong, I complain, now I try to weigh things and try to understand. Before, one mistake leads to a fight, now I try to calm down and relax. I have learned that you don’t need to fight before a petty thing can be resolved. I used to think that am older than my age, but now, I believe that I am, that I’m mature… and I’m proud of that.

For the past weeks, things turned out unexpectedly, not that I’m complaining , in fact am quite happy with what happen, but like what I’vie written in my previous blog, you only have control to anything that is you, beyond that, you can’t do anything about it.

“There are millions of people in this world. But in the end, it all comes down to one”. It’s not a matter of finding that one particular person but making a particular person the one for you.

3 weeks ago, I was telling my friend, I don’t want to have a relationship just yet, no dating even, probably for the next 6 months or even a year. But something happened…

“You can be anywhere where when your life begins. You meet one person and anything is possible.”

Thank You Jhon...

2007-05-03T18:04:00.000+08:00

Now that Government is more of a second home to me, I want to give my gratitude to the very first person who made me feel at home and welcome… close friends know that I was not as sociable before. I already frequent the club before but I never had as much fun as am having now. Music and booze was my reason for going there, but now, it’s the people you more so call family…

This guy, who first danced and talked to me in Salvation Gold in PTTC last October 2006 and eventually every time that I am in Government from then on…, I can still remember the very first question he threw at me “bakit ka may gum at bakit ka my hawak na tubig?” and then he flashed that grin… then the rest was history.

Jhon, thanks for the gift friendship and thanks for making me feel welcome… you may not know it, but you made a big difference… =)

Thanks for Everything, Everyone!!!

2007-04-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

isn't it wonderful that you are going to clebrate your birthday without any fancy celebration but somehow you feel very overwhelmed...

i have always been grateful for the things that come my way, there may be times that i missed this, but hey am just human, and i have my shortcomings...

i have celebrated birthdays before like as if it was just an ordinary day but this year, even if its gonna be as simple or as ordinary as it may be, i still feel grateful...

I am very grateful for the past year, for the people i met, for the happy and not so happy times and most especially for the experiences and leassons i've learned. I am overwhelmed for the things that MIGHT come my way, and for the things that I have yet to experience...

For the past 23 years I have somehow maintained a positive outlook on things and i would want to keep it that way...

Cheers! For the years to come and for memories to keep!

A short pause follwed by a sigh

2007-04-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

I have come to realize that no matter how you plan things or even envents in your life, it will never happen exactly the way you wanted it to happen. In more ways than one, reality will always be different from a dream...

In reality you do not have control in things that is beyond you... as a result, you get frustrated...

lesson learned: do things not because you want the expected result but because you want to do it now... it may affect the future but no one can really say that it will... take responsibility of your actions but your actions alone, things happen because they just do...

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